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..a retrospective study of life..

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I was searching through my friendster message.. And I’m looking for this message that I sent. It goes like this; 25 May 2005.

Looking at life in a sarcastic way! Dont read this! This is poison! Khairul wrote:
God knows, how though this o n g posting for me!
Life is a bitch. Eventhough, I’ve been
appreciating all these babies coming out from the
wombs and those midnight screaming, for heaven
sake, this is not fun.

I’m not even enjoying, when I have to talk to
patient-just how the hell am I suppose to talk
about the menstrual cycle, regular, 2-3 pads??.
Never once seen vaginal discharge. And, the
physical examination and all, what!? doing VE,
yeah when? till I’ve become one of those lousy
houseman hey!

Got scolded everyday, and hating the
rest of my life for being an unqualified doctor!Im struggling even to present a simple case to my

Yeah those, sarcastic-heartless-inhumane teachers of the hospital.

I just want to live the life of unknown and not
knowing. Better off, not knowing about something
and not doing it. You can never ever fail, if you
dont try! Go ahead and laugh! You might end with
something like this and you keep on complaining
eventually you become suicidal and hating the
life like no other!

Raya is near! All the families members keep on
asking you, “What have you been doing?” and “You
looking great! “. You answer would be, conducting
deliveries and, sometime wondering how great, to
see life is born. How precious is life and and how
great is to be a doctor.

But on the other hand, nobody is hearing you. How bad you presented to your lecturers. How limited you know about, pregnancy and all. How terrible you are when
arguing with your friend when they started to talk
classifications and definitions.

For all you know, you are taking the credits out of the
hard-earned-to-be Jururawat Masyarakat and staff

Some of you may agree, but the majority wouldnt
care less of these things I ve said.

Well who am I to judge?

-Talking in non-standard english. Ever heard one?

Read and tell me what do you think? Retrospective study of life. Haha.. Coming near to you.


Written by M Khairul Z

July 23, 2006 at 9:47 pm

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  1. i did that posting this year in may.tell me about it! although, i have the advantage of being the female gender. Id say what u wrote practically goes through everyone’s head- the majority of us med students that is.


    July 24, 2006 at 1:40 pm

  2. Yeah, and I was so depressed. Virtually, every thing I wrote was so full of misery.

    Hehe. Really, one year had passed and that fear still exist. Heh.


    July 25, 2006 at 4:45 pm

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